Portraits

 

 

 

I’ve always been fascinated by faces.

They show and hide so much.

They are the gatekeeper, the mirrors, the doorways to who we are.

I was looking for a theme that I’d be inspired to paint daily. So for the past few weeks I’ve challenged myself to paint more faces. I love finding an expression that shows strength and vulnerably at the same time. When I paint faces it feels like I’m searching the page with my paints to find what’s hidden. Using the brush I then slowly caress it to full beauty. To let this process happen freely and joyfully I need to get to a place between control and letting go. An illusive place within myself. It’s a wonderfully frustrating process.

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Mother & Artist Balancing Act: Sometimes it feels like the Circus!

I’ve never been good at having to interrupt my work when I’m creating.  I was never good at spending my free time on my own creations while working in theater and film.  I enjoy my “I deserve to relax” time too much.  I just don’t know how to shift gears, let go and change focus.  Needless to say being a mother of 2 makes this challenge even harder.  As an artist I feel like I’ve had to give up a HUGE part of myself.  The first time around (at the birth of our son) I felt like a part of me was in mourning.  The 2nd time around, as our daughter was born it was easier as I had already given up so much.  Now that she’s here and I’ve recovered a bit I’m itching to get back to that dormant artist within.  I remind myself daily to have little goals (little expectations).  I’ve brought a bunch of projects home from the studio and I hope to start working on them in the new year.  After all it’s Christmas time and I think it’s the first year that creating the magic I remember as a little girl for my son will really matter to him.  So in the mean time I’m creative within the holiday spirit.

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Following My Heart

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I often think: “What the @#!!# am I doing ?!?” Those are the moments when I’m not moving forward, fear is staring me in the face trying to get me to loose my way. In those moments I focus in on myself and my deepest desires and breath deeply letting the answer flow over me so I can say with confidence: “I’m following you, my heart!”

I love what I do! There I said it.  But what do I actually do?

I spend a lot of time thinking up visual ideas and designs.  Sometimes it’s an idea for new illustration series other time I think “I would love to illustrate a coloring book. What should it be?”  I love coming up with a style, a feel for that idea.  I love the time it takes (A LONG TIME!) to tweak the idea in my mind before I’m ready to try it out for real.  I love that I have many projects floating around in my mind.  I love the ones that are ready to see the light of my studio but I love the ones that are at a standstill because I can’t quite figure out how to make special and I love the ones that are just a seed of an idea.

I love drawing. I love painting. I love sculpting & I love trying something new.  I love how making an idea into a real piece has flexibility and how the idea changes as I work on it.  There is freedom and trust in that moment.

Of course as I create my doubts come to visit.  Mostly frustration at my limited abilities.  Not being able to sketch it out how I imagine right away.  Maybe the paint isn’t doing what I wanted, it’s not looking like I wanted.  It’s almost inevitable that each piece has an “ugly duckling” phase. A place where I just want to throw it out.  I’ve learned that phase shall pass if I just stick with it.

I can’t imagine doing anything else.  It’s who I am and to not allow myself to do my work would be like saying I don’t deserve to be.  For that reason and the fact that “I know” I have a talent I feel like I have a responsibility to my gift to create.  I feel much more insecure about my place in the craft/art world.  I guess that’s sort of irrelevant and will figure itself out, maybe? Maybe that’s for another day.

Why do you love what you do?

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Black & White Study

Using black and white gesso on cardboard I created abstract landscapes

Using black and white gesso on cardboard I created abstract landscapes

This week I went to the studio and just felt exhausted.  I couldn’t convince myself to work on any of the many projects I’ve already started.  So I finally gave up and decided to just let myself paint some small black & white images regardless of sales or productivity.  Here’s a look at what I did in that hour and a half.

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The Hair Embrace

Another girl. Big eyes and lots of hair.

I quick sketch of a girl framed by hair

I quick sketch of a girl framed by hair

Painting of Hands

I’ve been working of my fascination with painting hands by creating a series of them for my next show.  Here is a look at the first phase.

Start of my black & white series on hands.

Start of my black & white series on hands.

Family Portrait

A pencil sketch of a family portrait I'm working on.

A pencil sketch of a family portrait I’m working on.

A friend of mine has come to me with the idea of offering custom family portraits.  I really like the idea and have been sketching ideas of what style I think best suits me.  Here is one of the many I’m exploring.

 

Girls; bald and tattoos

I’m obsessed with sketching girls.

One of many sketches of girls I draw weekly

One of many sketches of girls I draw weekly

Magic Garden

Here the beginnings of my 3D garden scape.

Here the beginnings of my 3D garden scape.

I’m particularly inspired by nature. Plants, animals etc.  I particularly love ancient looking plants and seeds.  I’ve been mulling over an idea of creating a clay girl wandering some sort of 3 dimensional Magic Garden landscape.  Here is a look at the work in progress.

 

House Fly

I’ve always been interested in old school scientific illustrations.  Here’s a sneak peak at my start.

My watercolor set and scientific illustration of the House Fly

My watercolor set and scientific illustration of the House Fly

 

 

 

 

 

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